Plodding along

Today I am the tortoise.

Many of my friends think that I’m living the glorious house girlfriend of Silicon Valley life right now. I admit, since quitting my job I have taken on most of the household work and cooking while R goes to work each morning with a kiss and a bag lunch.  While I can’t deny there is joy in being in your PJs until 10 and watching bad daytime tv I’m feeling worn down by this…freedom? I’ve started to apply to jobs again and I’m trying to introduce more structure into my day. Still I feel a bit empty and anxious. I want to make progress, but everything I’ve been doing seems like small fun projects and not anything that will move mountains one day. I strive to be as productive as I can each day and I am more satisfied by day to day tasks then I was in my last job. What am I missing?

I just need to remember I am the tortoise. I have been slow, but if I keep going I will win.